For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.
You know it, you live it. Everyday. It seems to not only apply to objects in the physical world, but to every part of our lives. For the past month, I've felt like every good thing has been accompanied by a bad thing in equal measure. This has left me feeling blah. Or meh. Or however you choose to portray the complete absence of both happiness and depression. Like a roller coaster stuck at the platform, I'm neither up nor down.
It's a little odd for me. Since I moved back to Portland a little over 4 years ago, I've been almost entirely ecstatic. Even bad days were good days. I'm still loving every day in my city - the gray skies, the budding flowers, the cold, the glimpses of Mt Hood and/or Mt Saint Helens on the drive home. But I'm lacking the ability to actually..DO...anything. Cooking, cleaning, writing, crafting, even reading. They've all fallen by the wayside. I can't even make a proper To Do list. This would also explain the lack of postings since February. They're there in outlines and half written ideas. But I just can't seem to concentrate long enough to finish writing anything.
I had big plans for this month. April is a break month for my Harry Potter yarning group and I wanted to spend it getting some other crafting done and organizing and planning for the next round of competition. But beyond mentally planning for the 2 large challenges I know I'll be doing, I just can't seem to get it together.
On the upside, I've been spending tons of quality time with Mendel and have been tearing through my Netflix queue. Here's to hoping the next few weeks bring a few more ups than downs and the needed motivation to get my life back in order.
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